Tuesday, November 26, 2019

Just a Few Questions, Ms. Castro

How does it feel?
                          Really hard to describe ---

What will you do on Friday?
                          The day will be weird and I don't know what to do ---

What have you been thinking about?
                          I'd love to elaborate, but feel overwhelmed & constricted ---

What are your plans?
                          Gratefully, they aren't just my plans anymore ---

Where have you been?
                          That's hard to explain and would take far too many words than my sparse
                           style allows for --

When did you know?
                          When they all talked about their long marriages and ------

Why did it bother you so much?
                           Now, that's a hard one - really no clue - it came out of the blue ----

How have you changed in the past 39 years?
                           Unbelievably, impossible to describe -- - really, it'd take
                           far too many words ----

Where's the silence gone?
                          Not far at all, accessible really, it's me who has gone ---

Do you think you'll come back to the silence?
                          Well, there's no choice - I have to - it's my lifeblood ----

What does God think of all this stuff in your head, in your heart?
                           God wonders when I'm going to sit down in silence to pray ----

Why are you finally writing tonight?
                           Because I have to -- I have to remember who I am -- I have to connect --

What's kept you away?
                           Worries about raising someone's ire, fear of speaking my heart ----

Has that really kept you quiet in the past?
                           The past has never been the present so I don't know -----

What will you do on Thursday?
                           Give thanks at a new table with new family ---

What will you do on Friday?
                           Give thanks for Rod and the life we shared: Bless it, let it go ----

What will you do on Saturday?
                            Happily help George with the green egg and ham.

Do you have more clarity after this little chat?
                            Actually, I do. Thanks for taking the time to ask me all these things --

Do you have anything to add?
                            I do --- I've found since my last post that true love can hold the most
                                        painful things this world throws at us. If I wanted to use more words
                                        I'd write about that. Again, thanks for asking.

You're welcome.
                           
                         




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